it’s a weird concept to deal with.
and to have no explanation or detail or the slightest bit of knowledge on why the hell someone would take their life is heart breaking to say the least.
drugs are bad drugs are bad drugs are bad was the redundant slogan at school throughout the years.
but what about don’t bully. don’t be over aggressive. don’t take anyone’s shit. what about those? why couldn’t we have made posters about that since first grade?
yeah drugs are bad, but although some of us will claim we just tried them for the hell of it, there was something pushing us into the hell of it.
maybe we’re all sad and maybe we’re not. everyone fucking sucks and if you’re cruel enough to force someone into taking there life, maybe you should do yourself a favor and take yours instead.
I guess I’m still in denial. like maybe he’s just on vacation, or at a rehab center again. I don’t know how much longer I can believe myself though, because 14 months is a long time.
or maybe self control is key. or maybe we all just need a helping half to tell us we are worth it. we do belong here. we have things to accomplish and places to attend.
I wish I could’ve loved you since you couldn’t love yourself, and maybe you could return the favor in the same way.